it's been about 10 years of my brother being a jerk towards me.

he's selfish, inconsiderate, anger-driven, and rude. i'm tired of being his sister, to be honest. there are so many times when he yells at me and rages at me and i just suck it all in. i never hit him or throw his stuff. but he has definitely pushed me and thrown my stuff across the room.

i've been trying to figure out how to love someone as unloving as him. God, nothing has worked. i am mistreated and given no respect by this self-centered 13 year old, and i'm tired of it. what more can i do?

my parents don't even know how i feel. for the last 10 years, they really haven't even learned how i've felt. they've never even seen half the crap i've been going through. my grandpa knows how he treats me, and even he doesn't care. i'm just ready to leave this house and get out of being under the same roof as him. all he does is give me spiteful 'gtfo' stares and yell at me.

i'm tired. absolutely tired. i'm ready to leave for college.

and when i leave, i can guarantee that i will not come back to check on him. he will be meaningless to me.